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July 2015 - Life in spiral
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03:13 pm: On Fighting. Craft inspirations and ideas. Adventures in sleep deprivation. Caveman andrea no happy. Days of the week. Hide and go eat. I cry with my little eye. Joel works at home. Just dont read it. Just wait until it happens to you. Magical gift of life. Men arent to be trusted. Parenting is harder than it sounds. Posts i need to make. Running away from home for the first tim. Sarcasm doesnt come across correctly in. Stay at home mom. Thats what little girls are made of. View my Tags page.
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Something - Life in spiral
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Jun 8th, 2015 at 10:36 PM. Something happened when I started demanding that I deserved things. Slowly, very slowly, im starting to worthy of things. The room was bad, really unpleasant, and it's been my space. The rest of the house was made vaguely live able . But my space was left. Disgustingly dirty because we didn't ever clean it before we moved in. And it was the first room we just filled with -stuff-. I could go on, and have. Gone on about the remodel. I don't know why but Joel allowed me much more ...
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Life in spiral
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Jul 24th, 2013. I feel a rage and a sadness over something I can't express. Not because I'm unable to articulate, but simply because I am not aware enough to pinpoint the cause. For now the tears and the agitation get blamed on surface level problems that are also very deserving of emotional expression, but I know there's something lurking. Beyond the obvious thing that's lurking and remains . And has remained for more than half my life, fundamentally inexpressible. More on that someday. Maybe. I will le...
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Life in spiral
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I'm much too cool to go to sleep. Nov 13th, 2000 at 9:39 PM. I dont have a red kilt! Hey look at that guy! His hair is orange, hahahahahahahahahahahahaha! The first girl I ever see with green hair. Asian man from the resturant. And for some reason the Chiquita Banana song is my theme song. - Aubra. Your mothers maiden name? Lady at the social security office. Jamison: your looking awfully zombie-like tonight. Me: and my, your looking Spaniardish tonight! Jamison: hey now, dont get personal on me! Andrea:...
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Tonight his breathing makes a gentle pop sound with each inhale.i… - Life in spiral
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May 17th, 2014. Tonight his breathing makes a gentle pop sound with each inhale.i won't sleep until the noise stops, but I don't have the heart to wake him so he can reposition. Tonight felt bad and heavy. It felt confusing and upsetting. I've felt valid in my immaturity and my interest in ignoring my emotional health, but times are changing. I just don't think I can feel the full brunt of the feelings get without completely breaking again. Posted via LiveJournal.app. Craft inspirations and ideas.
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My skin looks different, I look older .. Much. It came on suddenly.… - Life in spiral
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Sep 5th, 2014. My skin looks different, I look older . Much. It came on suddenly. I can't stop staring. Aging isn't what I thought it was when I start at it under the microscope as it slowly happens to me. It's not this beautiful graceful natural process. It's actively participating in decay. Posted via LiveJournal.app. 1 comment Leave a comment. Sep 7th, 2014 05:17 pm (UTC). That's how I feel because I saw wrinkles on my forehead and some new my lips. Ugh, I'm only 28! 1 comment Leave a comment.
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Yesterday was beautiful and sunny. I've been flying on a weird manic… - Life in spiral
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May 2nd, 2014. Yesterday was beautiful and sunny. I've been flying on a weird manic spree. But last night things took a dip. Life felt bad and heavy and I started crying. I felt emotional on edge even though I pulled it together. I went to Sally's house and she gave me some crazy crazy beautiful yarn for a shawl I will start soon. I came home and made a disgusting strong drink. Hmm. Then I played EQ and it wasn't as fun or funny as I wanted it to be. My emotions feel dull and stupid. Days of the week.
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2016 - Life in spiral
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Craft inspirations and ideas. Adventures in sleep deprivation. Caveman andrea no happy. Days of the week. Hide and go eat. I cry with my little eye. Joel works at home. Just dont read it. Just wait until it happens to you. Magical gift of life. Men arent to be trusted. Parenting is harder than it sounds. Posts i need to make. Running away from home for the first tim. Sarcasm doesnt come across correctly in. Stay at home mom. Thats what little girls are made of. View my Tags page. Designed by Tiffany Chow.
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It's 8:30.. My niece and nephew are here. I don't remember knowing… - Life in spiral
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Jul 14th, 2014. It's 8:30. My niece and nephew are here. I don't remember knowing that they'd be here today. There's a scheduled raid at 11am. Am not sure if I want to go. Plane of Sky. Easy to mess up, hard to retrieve your corpse. Was so tired last night I wasn't making sense. Fell asleep around 10pm instead of 1 am. Forgot to turn humidifier on. Must finish baby quilt for Chris and Caroline's baby. Am surprised one of my male cousins is finally procreating. I feel so much joy for them. Days of the week.
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