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To Be Determined...: I'm Doing Everything I Can, I'm Getting Back From Where I've Been...
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Monday, December 26, 2011. I'm Doing Everything I Can, I'm Getting Back From Where I've Been. It's been a while since I've really blogged. I guess I feel like I'm always writing the same thing over and over again. Of course, it's your choice whether you read my repetitiveness or not, so I guess what matters more is that I say what I want/need to say and not worry about what other people think (which I fully acknowledge that I do too much, anyway). Anyway. That I hope will help many of those. I believ...
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To Be Determined...: And Then No Need To Endure Anymore, Time Dies...
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Tuesday, December 27, 2011. And Then No Need To Endure Anymore, Time Dies. And I'm jealous. Jealous of his ability, jealous of people who are happy, even my own friends, who have and can do things that I can't figure out. Who know how to overcome. Who are stronger than I am. I don't want pity. I don't want anything from anyone. I just want it all to stop. I am a horrible human being. December 29, 2011 at 9:41 PM. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). View my complete profile. Torrie Marie's School of Dance.
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To Be Determined...: Maybe I'll Even Laugh About It Someday...But Not Today, No.
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Monday, March 26, 2012. Maybe I'll Even Laugh About It Someday.But Not Today, No. Why is this upsetting me now? Why can't I handle it? Why won't it stop? I thought that it was supposed to get better with time, but instead it feels as though it only gets worse and worse. Why wasn't I, am I never, will I ever be good enough? Why won't the pain caused by others leave me? How am I EVER going to be okay? Time does nothing. Space does nothing. Hope.kills me. I would give absolutely anything to make it stop.
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To Be Determined...: August 2011
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Saturday, August 20, 2011. You'll think what you want. Say what you will. It doesn't mean you know anything. What is is not always what it seems. It's not your place. The choice isn't yours. Don't do me any "favors". You don't know what I need. You do me a disservice. It's not a game for you to play. Shut up and go away. My life is only mine. It doesn't matter what you believe. You don't know a thing. And only I speak for me. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). View my complete profile. Sam Bradley's YouTube Page.
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To Be Determined...: That Would Show You, That Would Make You Hurt Like Me...
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Monday, January 9, 2012. That Would Show You, That Would Make You Hurt Like Me. What in the FUCK is the point? So disappointed. So, so disappointed. So hurt. One day I am quite sure it will actually kill me. At least then there will be peace. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). View my complete profile. Torrie Marie's School of Dance. Sam Bradley's Official Site. Sam Bradley's YouTube Page. Sam Bradley's MySpace Page. Edward Hartline's MySpace Page. That Would Show You, That Would Make You Hurt Like.
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To Be Determined...: is it over yet?
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Tuesday, February 7, 2012. Is it over yet? I wish i was dead. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). My friends call me Lola. I'm 26 years old. Just trying to live life to the fullest. I love the people in my life. I love everything music, and I love to travel. I'm also a really big movie nerd. I'm not that interesting, really. View my complete profile. Torrie Marie's School of Dance. Sam Bradley's Official Site. Sam Bradley's YouTube Page. Sam Bradley's MySpace Page. Edward Hartline's MySpace Page.
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To Be Determined...: Already Gone.
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Tuesday, December 27, 2011. Forget what I said. I give up. I'm done trying. Done. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). My friends call me Lola. I'm 26 years old. Just trying to live life to the fullest. I love the people in my life. I love everything music, and I love to travel. I'm also a really big movie nerd. I'm not that interesting, really. View my complete profile. Torrie Marie's School of Dance. Sam Bradley's Official Site. Sam Bradley's YouTube Page. Sam Bradley's MySpace Page.
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To Be Determined...: May 2011
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Saturday, May 28, 2011. Something's Gone Terribly Wrong. Sometimes it feels like my life isn't "real life" . like I'm looking in on someone else's life or watching a movie or something. Sometimes I wish that was actually the case. It would mean the pain that comes with different events in life isn't real to me, and I could separate from it, look on it from an outside perspective instead of feeling it so intensely. I've had people tell me that I'm so empathetic (sometimes I think. Tuesday, May 24, 2011.
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To Be Determined...: You Didn't Say You're Sorry...
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Thursday, February 16, 2012. You Didn't Say You're Sorry. Sometimes things happen to us in life. Bad things, good things, unavoidable things. I have often wondered if there's anything that can happen that would have the ability to truly and undeniably change us, forever. It seems like we should be able to control how and to what extent things affect us, but I really don't think that's real anymore. Knows how hard I have struggled and how hard every day is for me. No one. The only thing I've ever asked fo...